I don't normaly envy what others have, but I'm human too.

Sometimes in life, I rarely being grateful for all that I have. I give complaints all the time, mainly for something I couldn't have. That's childish, but that's what you call being human. The thing is, when you act elegant and calm about life, that's the ridiculous one. Why? Because human normally like to act childish.
When I see other people's live, I'd see myself wonder what if I could live that person's life. It happens all the time.

They have joy I don't have which makes me want it so bad. Afterall, I'm being wicked.

Life isn't unfair, neither is God. It's you who isn't fair of your fate.