Have you ever looked into your own mind?
To see
whether or not there is any script of plan
life plan

Have you ever looked around?
To see
whether or not people manage to live
based on their sole plan

I do too
Have a plan

Not a plan necessarily, but dreams.

I used to dream a lot, plan many.
Not now,
not in this circumstances
not in this state of mind

Dream the impossible, they said.
So I plan the impossible.
So impossible I don't think I could reach it.

So high above the stars.

Those dreams make me expect more.
Until then I realized that, it could kill me.
So deep.

I always look down
on myself.
Pessimistic
about everything in my life.

Why?
Because I couldn't live in my own judgement.
I always take their view of me.
I live in the shadows of people's judgement
They said I couldn't do it
not capable of it
never enough

I gave up on my dreams.
For what?

To live like a normal people.
Normal is when you life comfortably with all you have.
No more dreams; I'm empty shell.