Baru-baru ini dapet semacam pemikiran aneh tentang perkuliahan, yah gak jauh-jauh dari pilihan pindah major. Honestly, I little bit regret my decision to change my major, yeah moving to literature. Dealing with anything from this major seems interesting for me, I won't doubt that, yet it feels like I'm not really into this major. I can say that linguistics is much easier. Maybe that's because I've been so used to learn science for a long time even since I was on senior high. Once again, it's all about familiarity.
Yah, tapi bukannya gak berusaha sih, bukannya mau berlindung di balik alasan kebiasaan. Sebenernya juga udah capek banget belajar ilmu pasti. I need to learn something new for sure. Udah coba baca-baca segala sesuatunya yang ada hubungannya sama blekenek blekenek ini, masih belum seberapa maksimal hasilnya. By the way, balik lagi ke kebiasaan jadul "practice makes perfect" gak ada ceritanya gak bisa kalo udah tekun. Stereotype "pinter dari sononya" itu gampang diruntuhin kok. People might say that intelligence comes naturally, cuma orang orang tekun aja who could make innovation.
Haha dan sekali lagi postingan ini ujung-ujungnya jadi self-motivation. You just need to believe in yourself. Underestimation will come and go as other people may please, just keep on the right track though.

Lanjut dari part yang kemaren. Gak penting sih ya, tapi gak papalah itung itung ini bahan penting buat diceritain. At the very first time, aku pikir kerja itu ca-pek. Apalagi kerja di cafe wira wiri gak jelas, ya kan? Tapi, well, semua gak seperti yang dibayangin.

Training day 1. Gew-jeh. Pertama dateng jam 6 pas maghrib, mau ngapain cobak training jam segitu? Eh gak taunya malah disuruh ngejagain stand pancake di depan cafe pas MTD. Semakin geje karena cuman diem aja gak tau musti ngapain (seharusnya sih ngapa-ngapain, inisiatif, tapi ya gitu wes khilaf fufufu).

Training day 2. Dateng sore. Gak tau musti ngapain dan kayak gimana. Paling cuman wira wiri ke depan ke belakang. Ya tetep aja, masih gak tau what to do secara detilnya. Mereka bilang sih ya, aku ini ditraining jadi kasir (wong pelo kok dikongkon nyekel duwek). Yah tapi sembaranglah nurut aja. Still, hari itu cuma dikeliatin ke komputer. Belum disuruh ngapa-ngapain. Sampe akhirnya ...

Training day 3. Ini awal dari penderitaan *luuwebay*. Masih aja nangkring gak jelas, wira wiri gak jelas, meski dikit dikit udah tau gimana caranya jadi kasir sedikit sedikit. Sedikit lho ya. Then, i got the message. Semacam SMS kaleng, yah gak penting gausah dibahas siapa yang ngirim. Yang penting, pada intinya dia nganggep aku itu semacem bertingkah kayak bos. Kurang inisiatif, mostly duduk duduk doang. Padahal training harusnya semacam rajin dan jadi kebo congek yang semangat kerjanya tinggi. Yah, sori lah ya aku emang lembek. Nagis deh dapet sms begituan. Haduuuuh nggilani. Tapi mau gimana lagi, takut jugak dicampur kaget, bingung, terusannya gak tau mesti ngapain. But, thank God masih ada qaqa qaqa senior yang baik ngenasehatin dan nawarin solusi. Pada intinya, "itulah dunia kerja".

Training day 4 dan seterusnya. Udah mulai pasang aksi gaboleh lembek. Mesti mulai inisiatif dan dikurangin pelonya. Pelan pelan sih ya sambil dibimbing dituntun sana sini (opo ae seh) akhirnyaaaa semua jadi serba simpel. Mulai ngerangkul berbagai kalangan (ceileeeh) nambah nambah temen gitu maksutnya. Hem, asik lah ya.

Now, udah bukan training lagi. Udah dapet seragam dan jobdescriptionnya udah jelas. Cashier merangkap server mihihihi. Kerja itu unyu. Kamu bisa tau gimana caranya ngehadepin orang banyak, how to treat them nicely. Daaaaan menciptakan sikap ramah. Ramah itu penting. Ya masak mau juteeeek terusan. Yang paling penting obral senyum sana sini, termasuk ibadah kan ya? Asal jangan obral hati aja *ups.

Big thanks buaaaaaaaattt temen temen alias partner partner kerja tercinta. Terimakasih qaqa qaqa atas bantuan dan bimbingannya. Mbak icha yang super dewasa, Bli barista kepler temen gaul, Erik si tukang sepik gak jelas. Krisna my best brooooo, Karisma adek 'besar' yang suka ngasih aku makan. Dedik yang embolah gak jelas, Tyas yang gak tau ya gak pernah ngobrol lama, Vika makasih lho ya i learned so many things from you *kode, mbak Mira mbak ginuk ginuk yang unyu, Bismo yang ehm .... kebanyakan modusnya. Pokoknya makasih.

There will be so many steps in reaching a better life ahead, keep spirit, babe! ;)

Intro : Udah gak usah pakek inggrisan lah ya capeeeek :| otak udah berbulan gak dipakek jadi semcam blank sama ilmu ilmu kemaren huahahaha *malahcurcol

Akhirnya sodara sodara, saya bukan pe-ngang-gu-ran hahahaha. Liburan panjang 3bulan yang tadinya aku pikir bakal end up kayak seonggok gombalan di rumah not happen. Iseng iseng sih ya, berbekal smsan geje sama mbak Ivana (geng pelo) yang notabene curhat, berbuah anjuran super unyu yang nyaranin aku buat ngrimn lamaran ke cafe tempat dia biasa ngeband. Yah, bolehlah ya, kan unyu jugak kalo bisa kerja di cafe semacam kayak yang di ftv gitu deh (maaf alay). hahahahahaha.

Hari pertama bikin surat lamaran, udah dengan rapihnya surat lamaran aku buat dan ternyata ... laptop had been stolen :''') sedih kan? Tapi kalo yang namanya jodoh enggak kemana sih ya *opose* akhirnya dengan usaha pinjem sana sini surat lamaran udah jadi hahahhaa (padahal coppas). Next daynya, aku kirimin tuh surat lamaran ditemenin ibu asuh tercinta Nyoman Mega Sumamelati Degeng. Yah biasalah ya namanya jugak semacam mahasiswi labil yang gak pernah ngelamar kerja, semacam pelo gitu gak tau tuh surat lamaran harus dibungkus pake apa. Jam setengah 10 malem keliling nyari warnet buat ngeprint sama nyari amplop coklat. Yah namanya aja jam segitu nyariin warnet aja sampek ke basuki rahmat :| Terusannya wira wiri nyariin amplop coklat daaaan gak nemu. Terpaksa deh pake apa aja, pokonya amplop warna coklat (wes ketok ngawure). Then, sampe juga di depan cafe, dag dig dug dueeer kayak mau diapain aja ckckck luebay seh ya, tapi mau gimana orang pengalaman pertama kok. Jalan deh pelan pelan ke dalem cafe terus disamperin servernya. Masnya semacam celingak celinguk gak percaya ada dua mbak mbak ababil nanyain lowongan kerja huahahha maklum dandanan radak rempong :x yah babibubebo akhirnya kita titipin tuh surat lamaran fufufufufu (mas mas tersebut namanya dedik yang notabene partner server aku sekarang).

Berhari hari kemudian aku udah sante sante kayak di pante, diem di rumah ibuk asuh sambil nunggu bin ngarep panggilan interview yang gak dateng dateng. Dan akhirnyaaaa, I got it ;) Dapetlah sms panggilan interview itu. Alhamdulilah lah yaaaa. Masih dengan keadaan lolak lolok dateng deh kesitu. Setelah interview panjang lebar yang pada intinya bapak itu sedikit meragukan kesiapan mahasiswi yang ... ya gitu deh buat kerja, akhirnya si bapak (babeh) nyeraaahh. Accepted hahahahaha! Langsung lari cengar cengir ke mami asuh yaaaaakk "I got the job!".

 

Hate
I hate you the most since the very first time we met
You were such an arrogant annoying student that made me sick of you
I hate the way you said something
Too much, too rude
I hate the way you act
as if you were the one that can master anything

Until one day

Different
I felt it
Your glance at that time
I dont know ...

Next day

I still felt that difference
Your annoyance didnt impact so much on me
I told myself that maybe I get used to it
Maybe ..

That day

I moved to that place
What a wonderful place of a wonderlful atmosphere
Till I realized that
it was your place too

I prepared myself to hate this situation
But the fact was,
I did not
Even it was something like
"What a coincidence"


"Do not love much, do not hate much because that much will hurt you so much"
"When you hate someone, unconsciously, your attention will be directed most to someone you hate. Let fate does the rest, then you'll know what will happen next."

Single. You don't have to consider it as something pathetic. For me, it is absogoddamnlutely FUN.

When someone asks you whether you have couple or not, just answer it briefly. "I am single." hahahaha it is such a pride you know? People out there may neglect their relationship just to own that status, SINGLE. Single offers you so much freedom to enjoy all on your own. Be proud then haha.

Thing that I love the most from being single is friendship. Okay, people in relationship also have friendship, but there's always something different towards it. When you are single, friendship would be taken as the first place. You can have fun, laugh, do crazy things, freely without any worry. Sorry to say this but when you have relationship, the term would be automatically changed to your couple. Just imagine what would happen if you take your friends as your priority? Ummm, I'd rather not say that. Hahaha. Ya, once again it depends on each personality. Do not ever generalize all the people as the same.

Friends will always be there for you. Your relationship with them isn't bordered by any ridiculous thing (just guess it). Sadness will be covered faster than any moodboosters can. For having fun? You don't need to ask this. They may give you fabulous ways to get more and more fun. But please, cheat yor friend won't be allowed here. Once you cheat, everything won't be the same as it was. They will leave you forever, this is the heaviest risk that you might get. Treat them right and let them decorate your life beautifully. Find multi-function side of your friends and your life would be so colorful.

This is me and my hilarious friends. They are just two of my other hilarious friends. Yet, I'd rather call them as my family. As usual, live, love, laugh. Elaborate your love more to the one that needs you. It doesnt have to be the romantic one. Love your friends. Be nice to them and they will hundred nice to you.

Commitments. I dont know why these days it could be such a horror. Especially for men. Or I'd rather say boys. Indeed, they want something romantic, affection, or other lovely things that relationship offered. Yet, for something bounded? The would reject it. It would be a BIG NO. Why is that so? Are they afraid of losing freedom? Oh, it doesnt make any sense. They couldn't generalize all the girls as the same. Though, I might be included to that one. Ha-ha.


In other words, they are interested in loving, caring, or something but not in making a relationship. They often say, "What is so wrong about a guy and girl who only getting into friendship?" Indeed, it is so wrong. Girls are sensitive (if I'm not mistaken), not every girl in the world would make your thinking as okay. Girls are taking relationship as something to hold and rely on. Relationship for girls is kinda conviction that would make them sure everything is okay. Let say they are childish if they are taking labeling of relationship as something precious. Boys will never know that such 'unimportant' thing will cast out any insecurity they feel.

Honestly, it happens to me. I am in an unguessed relationship with one of my classmate. Everything has been so unclear since the first time he knew what I'm feeling. He only said "Thank you." Pffffttt, What do I expect then? :/ Then, we continued with ... well I dont know how to describe it. It seems like he wanted me to guess all of 'this'. We were hanging out sometimes, texting each other, but then what? It was nothing. When it came to a point that I have to make this clear, he just said, "What is the difference between having a relationship and just being friends? We still can have fun like this, right?" OMG, then I concluded that, When happiness is the one that matter, relationship is nothing :|

Maybe from boys' point of view, I found the truth. Even it is a little bit shocking, I agree with them. What is the meaning of relationship then if both of you know that you are meant to have something? Relationship is made just to let others know, it is not important. It could be so pathetic when everybody knows that you are in relationship, yet the truth is that you are never happy at all. Fake relationship. The only thing that matter here is happiness. People may have their own perception to have it. But this is world. So please, be realistic. Dont be such a naive that only look at the narrow point of view.

Even if its is guessed or unguessed, you are the only one that know how to make yourself happier. Cheer up girls ;;)